ARRRRRGGGGHHHH

Gonna need some support from ya all today...

That SAD map has been purple for soooooo long./.....

The kids are still ill, but going back to school tomorrow. So I havent been out for two days.........;fkjlgj;akfjo;seijf;kjhf;ewHF. Never mind seen anyone.

The weather is totally awful outside. Talk about 'strong NE breeze. I can reliably inform you that it is nothing of the sort. Its gale force out there, and very wet......dslkfjlsekheskjf;dsih

Looking forward to the sleet tomorrow....kfskdj;ksdj;ksdj

And to add insult to injury, just when I really can not take anymore...

My child missed the audition today at school for the christmas play. I havent told him. Ive just phoned up the school to tell them to bare him in mind. Just been told that 'Thats Life' and he wont be considered as its gonna be on the tele. You know i NEARLY FLEW FOR HER. Hes only 7 for goodness sake, and is gonna be totally, totally, totally devastated. Its all he wants to do. Been going on about it for weeks. Hes wanted to be on the stage, as a profession, for years already, and will be joining stage school shortly.

Havent the heart to tell him. Its eating me up.

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Argghghghg

Close to tears now and close to becoming reclusive again. Am not strong enough to take these knocks. Just want to sleep for a hundred years.

Me x

Hi Me... I know what its like when you get knocks and you feel you can't cope... sorry ur having such a rough time at mo - sendin lots of virtual support ur way xx

Don't apologise - trust me, my rant will come soon enough!
Good luck with the step claws!

*****big hugs*****

Hang on in there Me, it'll be ok, I hope your step class helps
xxxxxxxx

Absolutely, Paulst!

Glad you're feeling better today! ^_^

Its panic attcks and floods of tears galore here, I'm not having such a good one...

its great you are feeling better. Faerie, I hope you feel better soon.

Passing it on eh? I guess sharing it about is better than all suffering all the time!

I'm now feeling much better. Went for a lovely long walk with my dogs this afternoon, and made an ultra nutritious lasagne, and feeling good. Could do with another 2 days of weekend though! Is it monday coming up already?!!

Goodness, where do you get the energy from to do yoga and at 6am! takes me all my energy to get up an hour later.

paulst, I get up for work at 5am. I start work at 7:30am.

I could *probably* wake up at 5:30am, which would give me an hour to get ready before I had to catch the trolley...

... but if I did, I know there would be days I couldn't get out of bed. I think I'm physically incapable of rushing in the mornings, with my joint troubles. It's better I give myself the extra time.

Can't imagine how I'd fair with the SAD if I slept in and then had to rush. I'd probably walk in with toothpaste on my forehead. Actually, before I got my SAD lamp, there were a few days where my pants were backwards... never as bad as the day my pants were INSIDE OUT. (Grrr!)

5am, there is no way I could get out of bed at that time of the morning, you are just incredible.

Hi ya guys.

My body clocks waking me up at 4.00am. Dont understand why. My health encyclopedia tells me that im waking up during my 'lung replenisment time'. Doesnt ring true.
However, it does say 'our evoluntionary ancestors benefited by sleeping longer hours and keeping their metabolic rate low in winter when food was less abundant but could enjoy longer periods of wakefulness through the summer when nature produced its bounty.' So maybe I should look into it abit more seriously.

What a time to get up intentionally Amalthea. Extremely well done flower. After one week, I think my whole world would be more unsidedown than it normally is. Amazing.

Dont know if I could follow the cinema option listed above. Its too dark in there, and I normally fall asleep about half way through. Because there are so many trailers these days, I bearly get past the start of the film. Im the same at night clubs. I dont drink much alcohol, so after a couple of cokes you can bet your bottom dollar that i'll be asleep in the corner. I must of looked sloshed. Dont go to places like that now.

Went to see Take That, yesterday. Nearly fell asleep during Sophie Ellis Bextor. Nothing to do with her singing, may I add. The show was brilliant. Well worth the hastle of mingling with thousands of others in the dark, just the scenario that I would normally hide from.

Im still enjoying my yoga. Only doing once a week, but I might get a dvd or something to do at home. Body doesnt arf get stiff with it. But am seeing the benefits now.

Might go for a run, or swim today.

Have a good day guys.

Me x

I like pilates. It's a very effective workout... and challenging. It did a lot to strengthen my belly muscles and probably did a lot of good for my back troubles.

Thats one to try then, Ill add it to my list!

Me x

HI kaz, I know how you feel, the weather is rubbish today, went to work, it was dark and horrible, came home and it was pouring with rain Grrrr.

Hi Kaz

Sending you hugs......

Hope you are feeling better once you get home. Don't beat yourself up about having an off day, we all have them. You can do tomorrow what you haven't done today.

I usually hit a wall with the tiredness (espeecially having ME as well) and have a day when I do absolutely nothing and try to recharge my batteries. It does help sometimes x

Looks like its your turn today Kaz.

Dont worry too much it'll be our turn very shortly. My (strange) idea of passing our bad days on to each other in turn seems to help me come to terms with my bad days.

We would be boring if our moods were level all the time, even if thats really what we want.

Me x

Ive had a pretty good day today, but on Friday our local authority is having a training day, strange people Ive never met, im getting worried already.

Thanks suzie, the support means a lot to me.

2nd bad day in a row! ARGH! Just burst into tears on my boss *AGAIN*. Man alive... I'm falling apart!!

Hang in there, Kaz. Have you changed your treatment routine at all lately?

Sometimes these bad days do happen (as they would if we didn't have SAD to make them that much harder to deal with! Grr!). Sometimes there's something we could be doing to help ourselves out a little (even just giving yourself a treat of some sort when you're feeling down, or going for a walk -- anything that's an enjoyable escape from routine).

I'll be thinking of you.

Glad to hear it Paulst. You did well, I hate role playing even when I'm feeling good.