Flatness

Yes, I would say that I feel "flat" more than I feel down.

Although feeling emotionally flat isn't good either. When I was a pre-teen, I hate to say that when I got to feeling emotionally flat, I would just stare at the wall and I started to worry I couldn't feel anything at all... I had troubles with "cutting" as a pre-teen exactly because the pain from the cutting would remind me that I felt emotion.

I don't know if it makes any sense, but I stopped cutting long ago. Sometimes it's just scary to think of what happens when we're alone with ourselves and SAD. That's why I'm glad for this group, and for knowing what SAD is. Ever since I learned what was happening, I stopped having the urge to cut.

Sorry for such a negative response, but I can't imagine I was the only one who was frightened by feeling flat all the time like that.

I think most of us knows what you mean and have those moments.
Amalthea there was someone on here before that asked a question about cutting themselves. He was not a happy camper.

Paulst I agree with you. You know what helps me is watch a funny movie. Did you know that laughter is good medication.

paul are you by yourself I just wondered if you have support close by not being nosey just caring

Well when the sun shines you smile.
When a funny movie is on you smile or laugh a little. Like I said it is good medication.

I never harmed myself but I have only had sad for 3 years. I think I can understand why you would hurt yourself. You just want to see if you are still alive because of having no emotions. SUMMER is coming.

i seem to get angrier in winter so easy must be the sad

I don't feel the urge to self-harm any longer, thankfully. When I was younger, I didn't know why I felt so empty and so different. In a way, just knowing about SAD is strangely reassuring. I know it isn't my fault and I know why I sommetimes feel different. What about kids or other people who don't know they have SAD? Just how do you cope?

I think we're fortunate.

I have had SAD since I was 13 or so. It used to be so scary.

Hi Paulst
I don't work I am a homemaker. I go to the YMCA in the morning but somedays don't know what to do with myself in the afternoon. I was involved at a home but that didn't go well. I just go back and visit sometimes in the winter but always in the summer. I need to find something else to do in the afternoon. There isn't alot in this town. It won't be easy.