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Posted by Me, 23:41 9 February 2008

I havent really worked for 12 years now, and then I left due to the combination of pregnancy and SAD, I just couldnt cope and lost confidence. Since then I have felt sure that it would be impossible to juggle a new job, and learning the new skills associated, 3 kids and their demands and my health and exercise needs.

I suppose its time to start work again soon and Im quite frightened. How on earth am I going to cope?

I have read that SAD could be classed as bi-polar. Not sure if I would like to be considered as having a bi-polar condition (no offence intended), but it would back up my feelings that I just wouldnt be able to cope!! I'm sure the NHS recognise bi-polar as a registered condition and therefore I assume that you could receive disability payments.

I suppose Im confused, getting desperate and perhaps a little frightened at the prospect of giving so much of my erratic energy/health levels away to everybody but myself.

If I am able to juggle all those things together, I will undoubtably wear myself quickly, and have no 'me' repair time for exercise etc.

Im starting to get worried, and that creates a never ending circle doesnt it!!

Does anyone understand what I mean?

Me x
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Posted by Amalthea, 20:24 10 February 2008

Me,
I work 40 hours a week. In the wintertime, it is a struggle. I'm tired a lot. I've had to be more deliberate in how I use my time after work and on weekends. Sometimes the most productive thing I can do is get a hot bath and lie down. It's been even more of a strain since my body has been hurting with the fibromyalgia.

I still manage, though.

I'm slower sometimes in the winter, mentally and physically. I'm fortunate in that I can sometimes choose to do less-demanding work until my brain and body is ready to work on that "big project."

I break things into step-by-step bits, rather than take on the whole task at once. It keeps me from panicking. I write everything down and make lists, too... that also helps.

I don't have kids. Maybe someone else will have more to say. Depending on how old the kids are, perhaps this is a chance to ask them to take on greater responsibility around the house -- explain that they'd really be helping you and that you do a lot to help them... It could be a learning experience for them. It's going to require some re-structuring of everyone else's life in order to take some strain off of you, too!

I don't know about NHS. Don't know about classifying it as bi-polar.

Hrm, maybe think about what hours you could commit to... Are you sure you want to try taking on a full-time job or could part-time work? Maybe there's a less-demanding part-time job, something you'd feel more comfortable -- maybe even enjoy doing.

I love my job, honestly. I'm a receptionist for a religious organization. It's tough to deal with people and sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming, but I'm stronger than I thought I was.

Me, don't think this is "all or nothing." Take some time, look at some classifieds, get a sense of what's out there and see how it matches up your comfort-level... see if there may be a job you could end up enjoying...

Maybe someone else can offer something. It is difficult, working with SAD... but enjoying my job makes it easier for me. Actually, I'm learning a lot from folks who have fibromyalgia so badly that they're on disability and I'm fearful of having to lose my job, because I've found that the work world doesn't necessarily have to be cruel and unforgiving... but can be a great way to have a better social life and a source of self-satisfaction.

Good luck to you!

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Posted by Me, 20:49 10 February 2008

Well, my kids do help me in the evening, but they do have to have a social life away from home as there is no where for them to play in this area. They do lots of after school projects between them. I try to cut it down to two each a week. So with three Im running around like a taxi taking them here there and everywhere. They are different ages and therefore have to go to different classes so it is impossible for them all to do the same thing at the same time.

Then there is the dinner, the eldest helps loads. I have to tidy up and help with homework. They all have to read to me every night for 10 mins or so. Maths homewok they also need help with and english too from time to time - they must get two nights worth of homework each a week + the reading.

Tidy up time followed by bed time. Different bedtimes for each of the kids as their ages dictate that unfortunately.

Then my husband comes home from work. Food time again followed by tidy up time.

By now its 10 o'clock and Im shattered. Got to get up at 7.00am as I eldest has to get out of the house before 8.00am, closely followed by us!!

After school charity nights/discos/fundraising/parent evenings have to be fitted in to and there is lots of them due to different schools. Along with the washing and ironing and shopping and all the other problems like sickess and school holidays. It certainly isnt a doddle

No time to exercise then.

I'll be able to take on part-time with no-training I suppose, just hope by brain doesnt go bang again like it did last time because I was so shattered and that was before I had kids. One of the reasons for this is my hypermania in the spring. I feel like i can do absolutely loads and tend, unwittingly, to do so. Come the autumn I slow down and 'bang' there goes my brain again and I go under. At the moment Ive managed to take control of my life, going back to work might just push me right under again. No wonder Im bothered, I value my health so highly.

Thanks for the support.
Me x
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Posted by PurpleIvy, 20:52 10 February 2008

I don't really know what you mean by a registered condition. I haven't heard of anyone getting disability allowance for having SAD. I wouldn't think ths SAD is categorised like this.
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Posted by Amalthea, 21:02 10 February 2008

Wow, Me, that's wonderful... all you manage already!

Give yourself credit for what you already accomplish!

With that schedule, I can definitely understand why you're pressed... and if you're going to go back to work, part-time sounds best! What was it that made your brain go bang last time? Can you put your finger on anything in particular? What stresses did you have that made it too much to handle?

Maybe you had a bad round with difficult co-workers. Maybe the hours weren't right for you. Maybe the job wasn't ideal for you.

I've often wondered if I wouldn't enjoy getting into a wildlife conservation job, what, with my love of animals and birds. Then again, I don't know how realistic it is... but someday I might try to learn more about a job like that. Then again, some hobbies might not translate well into jobs.

It's hard to drum up confidence when you have SAD. You're not alone in that! Sometimes, though, I get great satisfaction in having surprised myself. My work can be very mentally demanding, but I break it down into steps and make a little progress at a time and usually, for all my worry and frustration, I end up getting done sooner than I expected and doing a great job!

I'm really a little more than receptionist. I do some work for the accounting department and I take on a lot of the "big" projects for the office that require the use of the computer database -- putting together directories, some booklets, mail merges, pulling together major reports... I don't know how they get it all into my schedule! ;)
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Posted by Me, 21:13 10 February 2008

believe it or not i worked in a mental hospital when my brain went bang!! typical, a lot of help they were - didnt even recognise it!!!

I was absolutely shattered. So very very tired at lunchtime (again!!), I really needed a sleep. As I was out in the public area all the time, I asked for a spare room to use at lunchtime so that I could relax. I got tireder and tireder and tireder and ended up falling asleep on the bus on the way home numerous times - I had to ask a fellow regular traveller to wake me up at the stop if I dropped off.

In the end I couldnt cope any more and had outbursts and depression. I needed help and got none. At the end of my maternity leave I couldnt face going back as I was still absolutely shattered.

I would love to be a midwife, but I cant do shifts and most of the hospital here is so dark. Cant manage the training around the kids either.

Am starting to think about alternative health. But again the training puts me off - is my brain strong enough, and fitting it in is absolutely impossible with the kids school run three times a day!! (takes 2.5 hours a day!)

It would be easier if I could just think of myself, but it isnt possible yet. Love my kids though, so cant get rid of them lol

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Me x
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Posted by PurpleIvy, 21:20 10 February 2008

The children are small for such a little time, it might be better for you to enjoy that, I wouldn't have missed it for the world.

If you can't manage to get back to work because of your health, then you are right your health is the most important thing. If you don't have that you won't be any use to your children.
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Posted by Me, 21:44 10 February 2008

Yes PI

Im between the 'devil and the deep blue sea'.

Want to try but I dont want to get ill again.

On a positive note, I saw my first daffodils of the year today. They stood proud in the sun. Wonderful

Me x
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Posted by Amalthea, 23:44 10 February 2008

Me, if it's not a financial necessity, you might just want to wait. There's no shame in it.

I know what you mean about the fatigue. I had to buy a full-spectrum lamp for my desk at work. I also have to exercise before bed at night. Which reminds me... that's what I ought to be doing now. Mondays are really rough. I think I'm going to put in a movie, start dinner and then do some workout.

See y'all tomorrow, most likely.

Posted by Seasonally Apathetic & Disillusioned, 11:07 11 February 2008

Any form of mental health problem is a disability, and personally I’m currently entitled to Income Support with Disability Premium when I am unemployed and not able to do paid work because of the effects of SAD.
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Posted by PurpleIvy, 17:32 11 February 2008

That's good to hear Joel, in case it ever happens to me! I don't think I would be entitled to Income support as my OH earns well, but you never know what the future holds.
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Posted by Me, 18:52 11 February 2008

Thanks Joel.

Me x

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