Do you ever..........

Hi Hopefull

Not sure if you mention SAD is causeing this.

Think all sadies get this sort of insecruity as during the "season" many thought come into your mind with the asscocated depression and need for more sleep then a normal person would expect.

This insecruity is perhaps all felt, some a lot more then others and the need just for someone to be there in them times of need and someone to talk about how you feel at that time.

I true freind will always be there in times of need and this forum aways listen to anythinf people say, might take a few days depending on how we feel with the SAD, but someone will be around.

Plus we always listen to what people write, Sad can be a bitter thing if you let it get a grip, the self esteam and lack of confidence go hand in hand which is where a media like this helps so many to write anything in there time and in their own words.

Hi Hopeful (et al)

It's annoying isn't it. We don't just get up days or down days- we also get in betweeney (like this new word!) days that to me often feel worse than the black days.

It's like the black days are dark and miserable an like sitting in a tar pit... any movement you want to make takes soooooo much effort maybe you should just make like a dinosaur and die there.

The good days (for me) are like "what are we fussing about... come on let's giggle and be silly... look at me I can run round like a maniac and let me see... can I fly? can I? possible not but look I can jump really high... let's race... let's paint the whole house in just one day... can we? can we?" (in other words I get a bit full of life, so full it overflows!)

The grey days that sit somewhere in between are worse. bad is bad good is good and inbetweeney is just nothing. It's hard to describe which makes it worse, it's hard to understand. I'm so erm, ambivalent isn't the right word but I'm stuck and worried because I'm not sure what I feel and if it's right.

Sheesh, lucky I'm on the up at the moment. I'm in the middle of painting the bathroom (just finished a coat of white) and I'm dying to get the proper colour 'cuban red' on the walls. We have a big bathroom and i want it to be 'warm' and snuggly and red. I was contemplating getting up at 5 on sunday morning. There was never any danger of that happening. but I just want to do it ...NOW... if only I didn't have to come to work!

bright one