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Does anyone feel the same as me?

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Posted by looking for sunbeams.., 02:13 30 November 2006

I wake up in the mornings without wanting to do anything, feeling all worthless to the society. Totally careless. Don't feel you are worth much in groups, especially in group works in school! Then the guilt comes.. You have not done any work. You sit there with guilt and can not think of anything else than that you have to do work, but you are not able to.. You feel nervous, anxious.. and a evil circle starts. You have to explain yourself.. I just feel like hibernating now until April, when the sun is up for longer.. Does anyone feel like me? Does anyone have any tips to help me?
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Posted by looking for sunbeams.., 02:29 30 November 2006

It should be noted that I have had the diagnosis SAD in 9 years now.
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Posted by Chicago, 22:34 30 November 2006

yes!!! I feel the same way!!
I get panic attacks sometimes in the morning too. It was worst in previous years, but I can't remember what month so I may be up for some this winter too.
This may sound strange or worthless but I have been going to therapy for awhile lately (the first time ever longer than one or two sessions to get meds--and I have had it for about 9-10 years too!)
and she talked to me about challenging your thoughts and replacing them with positive. I told her I wake up in the morning and say things to myself, like i hate myself, i am worthless, etc. I am so tired, i can't get up i can't accomplish anything (sometimes even that I wish I was dead)....blah blah.
she said to really challenge that and think forth, is that really true or is it an exaggeration, a result of depression overwhelming me? It has helped SOME. I mean, I still hate getting up but I try to replace with positive...i.e. Ok, this is going to be a better day. I am going to try really hard to eat well and exercise. I am going to make it through this day, I am going to fight this SAD head on, etc. It could be worse, I am going to be OK, etc. Lately, I have not had as many gloom and doom thoughts when I get up. Also, last year when I got anxious I tried to take deep breaths and talk myself out of it.
But this is such a fight and I agree that anitdeps and light treatment can only do so much. I still feel like shit a lot of the time and I have been so late for work so much that it is really starting to affect my job.
My mom is in town and told me that this was all in my head and that my life is a disorganized mess. that is really helping me, let me tell you.
So try some positive rebuttal (yes, talk back to yourself!) and see if that helps. Good Luck. I know it sucks, here's to all of us laying in bed hating life in the morning.
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Posted by IMissSummer, 22:44 2 December 2006

Girl82:

I understand how you feel exactly. It's Saturday, and because I don't have anything that I HAVE to get out of bed for, I haven't. I live in an apartment with three other roommates that I usually hangout with daily. Lately I have been making excuses more and more of why I can't hang out. Last night I said I was sick, not completely a lie, but I didnt mention that the sikness I had was the kind where you can't get out of bed and have so much anxiety that you cant move or function socially...I thought that might sound a little weird to them.

Unforetuneatly, I don't have any answers for you. I am searching for answers myself. I am very frustrated at dealing with this as I am sure you are as well. I have started a workout program and am hoping that will help.

I am interested in finding someone to talk to that I can share my struggles with that will understand what I am talking about. I can be a good listener too, and can be very funny, especially when I am feeling good. If you or anyone is interested, PM me and I will give you my info. I live in the States so someone else in the States would be ideal but I am open to anyone. (Ahh!! my cell phone is ringing right now, I hate when people call me when I am feeling like this. I wish everything could just pause until I feel better.)
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Posted by Minnie, 00:41 3 December 2006

Yeah, I have that guilt.

There are things I know I should be doing that I'm not. Then I avoid doing them because of the guilt I feel when I do.

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