Feeling helpless :(

Hi joeybear, just wanted to say you are not alone! I think you've come to the right place, you will find support here. There might be a certain amount of reactive depression if you keep thinking of a certain event, and it is the same one. But it could be SAD if you think you have felt like this before in the winter.

It might be worth seeing your GP if you're feeling this bad, especially if you find them generally helpful. Light therapy is certainly worth a go, the light boxes are expensive but if they help to alleviate your symptoms you will think they are worth every penny. You can order them online via this website or you could call them. Unfortunately you're going to have to wait a little bit, as I noticed the office doesn't reopen until the 2nd, but that isn't really so long. I think Outside in have a trial policy, so you can send the boxes back in 3 weeks if you don't feel it is working for you. I think there is also a company around which hires out lightboxes on a monthly basis, it might be worth doing a websearch on that. It's also worth looking at the SAD Association's website, http://www.sada.org.uk

In the meantime, be very gentle with yourself - don't feel obliged to do too much just because it's Christmas, I know that is hard sometimes. And please try and eat something, or you will probably end up feeling worse (Oh no I sound like your mother now). But seriously, carbs help your brain produce serotonin, (best if they have fibre in so you don't get a crash later) and meat, fish and eggs have two amino acids which also help you produce serotonin. I'm no expert theough, I got that info from Jane Clark's Bodyfoods.

Lorraine

Thanks guys...

I'm just so up and down... I'm fine when my minds busy, like at work today, was so busy talking to customers and serving them, I didn't have time to feel depressed. Then it went quiet and my mind turned to christmas and it just felt horrible.

Christmas is just so shitty since my mum died, maybe it's that.... it seems to feel worse each year. I think I might have been in denial for the first couple of years, some deep hope she might come back, and now I know, it's like, each winter seems worse and worse...

I've been through quite a lot, and made a lot of mistakes, especially last year, that I'm feeling a lot of regret about recently. I was pretty much an alcoholic until I began to sort myself out. I think it's just weird being sober and actually caring about other people, and caring about what happens to me, because I have a boyfriend who I love more than anything. I'm finding it hard to cope with the fact that someone like him can love someone like me.

I feel bad because I know he can make me happy, and he does, yet I can't show it cos I feel so horrible and nothing can make me feel happy at the moment.

I should stop rambling really... just wishing for the summer so badly. I don't know how much longer I can take feeling like this...

When i get emotions of any sort I get affected by them quite badly, I'm just a very sensitive person. I get offended, hurt, amused, guilty easily, and so this is just really hard for me.

I'm just finding it hard to be positive about anything in my life at the moment. I wish something would help me :( I'm thinking of going on anti depressance again... I know I shouldn't but I can't think of anything else.



I have a question for any women on this board. I'm on the pill, and I keep on taking it without having a break.. the last cycle being about 2 months ago, and I had my last one 2 days ago.... do you think this could have any serious affect in my mentality?

I showed my bf the website, he's been so great about everything. I just can't wait for the summer and for this feeling to end.

Just trying to enjoy Christmas today, keeping my mind occupied with the television hehe....

Not long til the summer...