a little wave from winter

hello, i am new here, i have looked for an intro bit but cant find it

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i always know what the beast is on its way because for the last 6 years (which is when i was diagonised with it) i get the craving for salty food, when i buy those cheese and onion crisps they know its on its way.
I start taking my tablets about now, though this year i havent really come off them.
The light boxes dont work for me they give me migranes, but i hear they dont work for everyone anyway.
Me being the awkward one.
I get a range of symtoms, anxiety, panic attacks, fear, insomia, weight problems, head aches and general doom and gloom, I dont work because unfortunally it affects me ever so badly.
i remember when my doctor said, i think you have SAD i said, you what? i thought it was a horrible illness that i would go into hospital for, she said i have other SAD patients, but you my dear have all the symtoms and not just one or two of them.
You dont do things by half do you :lol:
But i suffer from depression as well, which i think is a stem off from SAD of the past, trouble is its only really been around for a few years, as to say it wasnt a word people didnt take any notice 10 years ago, they just thought you were barmy and told you everone gets winter blues.
I have always had problems around winter, and now i know why, it wasnt because i was barmy.
I do think people find it hard because it isnt caused by a problem that you can sort out, it is oh a word a invisible foe.
I seem to have aquired more things in my life, due to mood swings in winter in the past, i have lost jobs, and it kinda shattered my confidence, i now dont go out of the house on my own.
Once i was a very independant person, now i am really a small scared creature who has panic attacks everywhere she goes.
It does make me laugh sometimes when people say, well i get down, but then so do i, someone said, well i had a bad day the other day, i was late for work, there was a traffic jam and i had to work through lunch, She said what about you then, i said i had a panic attack and couldnt even leave the house.
i also i am sure you find this as well, is trying to explain to others what its all about, which is why i say.
Well imagine you have PMT, mood swings, you are trapped in a cave with no way out and spiders are crawling all over you, well thats my bad day, on a good day there isnt any spiders.
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You have to laugh dont you.
So many people say, well why dont you go to a sunny place, yes all well and good but if like me you are scared of leaving the house, its a tad difficult.
anyway, its nice to see there is a place to come.
sorry for rambling.
hugs xxxxxx

Hi winterme, welcome to the forum, I hope you find us friendly and supportive :) im really glad you have joined us



paul :)