denial

Hi there, I can honestly say I think I,v been in some kind of denial, trying to kid myself I don't suffer with S.A.D. We'v all had a cr**py summer so that won't have helped any of us.I haven't been on here for weeks even to read other peoples posts, (course it's all changed since I'v been away and I don't like change, any body else dislike change??)So here I am crawling back 'cos I need that comfort of knowing that others understand.I'm trying without med's 'cos I don't like the side effects, but wonder if I can manage without them. I'v read the other post (sorry can't remember name of person who posted it) about mess, I'm very intolerent to mess and try desperatly to get my family to understand how bad it makes me feel.
I could blurb on for hours but you'd all tire of it. Anybody else been in this denial place before??
Caroline

I can definitely relate to that. I was so sure that I wasn't going to suffer from SAD this year that it took me a couple of weeks to realise why I suddenly turned into an psycho irritable crying person. And by that time I'd already done irreperable harm to at least one of my friendships.

It's been catching me by surprise really. Even after a major hit a few years ago, I still think it won't happen.

Lol me too Paulst...... but as soon as she starts speaking to me I usually end up in a heap on the chair with her passing me tissues and me apologising

Wow, paulst & Suzie - I'm the same way with the doc. Usually I see the doc after a bad spell with SAD wakes me up from my denial that it won't happen again.

What do you mean Rangers?

Yeah, that's a bundle of laughs as well LOL! Come to think of it, I've been worst over the last few years.... early menopause too. If only the others didn't keep wanting the heating up!

Yes, had to call the doc's office at the start of SAD season after having an anxiety attack and bottoming-out emotionally. They asked why I was booking the appointment and I quietly said, "I'm depressed."

It's so hard to say those words, to admit we're at a low... honestly, that we're terrified and desperate, but just going for some help made me feel I had some control and I've been at a decent place since. Tired a lot and I say some stupid stuff, but other than that, I'm fairly leveled out. I count myself as being fortunate and hope to scrape by again this year.

Should reception staff be asking what's the matter? All they need to know is that you need an appointment! .. REminds me of a joke, but I don't know if I can find it. Will have a try!

Wonderful, ive not heard that one, lol.