Anyone else out there feeling really low? I feel like a freak. I feel I am a bad Mum, an unloveable wife and a Fraud at work There is no way I am good enough to do the job I am in it is only fluke that I have not been found out! All I ever do is moan and sit in my chair. I hate this - is it Prozac time already?
It is always awkward to be around people at this time of year. Personally, I fluctuate wildly in and out of feeling like I can do nothing and like I can do everything; like I am a unlovable horrid wretch and like I am completely on top of all human relations.
What mutes these fluctuations and brings them back to some semblance of stability is the notion that this phase that I go through each winter, year on year, provides a counterpoint to what a sorted/rounded individual I am in the summer months.
I don't know what I aimed to achieve in writing this (I know very little about your specific situation); telling you about how I see my SAD self (which I consider to be a different entity to my non-SAD self) seemed appropriate for some reason.
I am coping - just. I had a better day today. I completely agree with what you mean - I am invincible in the spring and summer -my brain works fast then and is quick, clever and impressive. At this time of the year it is like treacle and people just don't get why I can't function in the same way. I also find it frustrating and distressing - I hate the brain fog that comes with SAD. I find I am irritable and close to tears in equal measure! I am a mess! Roll on Spring!