Could SAD be the reason?

Hi there,

For about 3 or 4 years now, I've been getting terrible depression over the winter period. I never really consider it until my mom said to me 'WHY THE HELL ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THIS AROUND THIS TIME OF YEAR?!'

Last year I was hit really hard with depression towards the early start of December (It built up over November). It got that bad that the doctor had to sign me off for two weeks off work and I was told to seek councelling, but realistically, I can't understand why Im getting depressed. Financially I'm ok, and normally I'm a very bouncy and happy person.

Just recently I've noticed I'm starting to feel the same again, suffering headaches occassionally and becoming very moody and to myself. Even my boss keeps asking me if I'm ok.

Yesterday I was sat at my desk and my colleague asked me if I was ok, and I just felt like crying, and I dont even know why.

I'm considering going to my doctor about it again, I dont want it to get as bad as it was last year.

Could SAD be a possibility? I can't understand why else I would feel this way.

Stacey xxx

Thanks for your reply Paul. I'm going to contact my doctor now and see what they say.

Stacey xxx

Good luck with your appointment, my doctor has just changed my meds.

Well I've noticed that Im feeling more and more tired. Last night I got home from work, cooked dinner and fell to sleep on the sofa at 8:20pm, which I never normally do.

I also have to keep apologising to my partner as I keep nearly biting her head off D=

Stacey xxx

Well I'm booked in for 4:30pm today. I feel really bad because last night I bit my partners head off just for asking me how to use paypal >.<

Stacey xxx

Hi stacey, well done for going to the docs. Please dont feel stupid for bursting into tears, we have all done it,(I have). You should feel proud of your self.

Paul.

Thanks for your replies Paul and Dean.

I had a good chat with the doctor about the side affects of the anti-depressants and my concerns as well as a chat with my mom. My mom has been on anti-depressants before and she handle it well and got off them well; So I've decided to go ahead with it and took my first one today.

Im not very good with food and supplements as I'm a vegetarian that doesn't eat vegetables :\ so I think trying to adjust my diet to make me feel better would make things harder for me.

The doctor did say the anti depressants could make me feel worse for the first week, so I'm dreading going back to work, as well as trying to explain to my boss whats wrong with me, but my head is still saying to reject the 2 weeks sign off that the doctors given me. Hopefully my boss will understand if I feel the need to go home at any point.

My partner and friends are being very supportive. Shockingly last night my dad called me and he said 'Hey Stacey, I just wanted to call you to tell you I love you'. I nearly burst out crying then.

So right now my emotions are really up and down, like this morning I feel like I could cry after the smallest little thing.

I feel like things are going to be difficult to get used to, but my friends are encouraging me that at least I know, I can find ways to make it better in the future.

So today I want to try and rest my head a bit as it's all over the place. I'm thinking I'll get my partner to go with me for a walk with the dogs to cheer me up a bit.

Theres so much I feel I need to learn... But is there really?

This post probably makes no sense at all or is just up and down with feelings and for that, Im sorry.

Stacey xxx

The doctor has put me on Lustral/Sertraline tablets. She said it really would benefit me to have the two weeks off work whilst I get used to them, but I really can't afford the time off work, so I'm just going to have to bare my teeth and get on with things I guess.

I had a really restless night last night, but I couldnt find the energy to get up. I set my alarm at 9:20am and finally got myself up at about 11:30am, even though I was just lying there and not sleeping.

Thanks for your continued advice Paul.

Stacey xxx

So, I tried to tell my boss about it and ended up getting myself all really upset again. She's given me two days off work and wants me to call her this afternoon if I feel I need more time.

Monday was really hard for me and I spent the majority of the time crying. Today Im feeling alright, so Im thinking of going back to work tomorrow.

Stacey xxx

I hope you get on ok Paul.

I've told my boss that I'm going in tomorrow. Its 22:29 and my heads just started really messing with me, so I think I'm going to call it a night and wish myself luck with work tomorrow.

Stacey xxx