Worse this week?

I am not sure if its because I have had this week off on my own but does anyone one else feel this week has been a bad week for Sad?? The Citalopram does not appear to work as well as last winter but at least its prevented my panic attacks ;-)
Been dreaming of summer holidays!

True, the weather has been windy too which stresses me out! Also I have been craving all the bad foods this week. Feeling hungry and getting my usual winter headaches! Here we go again ;-)

I must admit this is my worst year I can remember, I feel like ive been hit by a truck!

Bizzarely, I have been beating my dawn simulator alarm clock regularly in the last two weeks, typically surfacing at around 0710.

I'm sure it is all tied in with the new postie job, making me feel so much better than I was during five months JSA (after complete company liquidation).

Granted, I have aching legs and feet from walking ~6 miles a day, but this feels much better than the normal wooly/lethargic me at this time of year!

I was coping till Saturday lunchtime, but it hit me then. i don't know if it's because there were a couple of stressy things at the weekend difficult meetings at work tomorrow.

Trying to just have a calm time at home as much as I can. Trying to get some stuff done at home so that I feel I've achieved something.

It's really hard getting up in the morning. I usually surface a couple of minutes before the audible alarm on my dawn simulator, but this morning it was the audible that woke me not the lamp.

GOing to up my medication slightly, hopefully will be able to do it slowly so that I don't get too many side effects. We'll see.

Well today I've felt the worst in weeks and not surprisingly its the worst weather today. It was dark at 3.30pm and I feel highly anxious and feel as though Im about to burst into tears. I hate this feeling so much, I thought I was doing so well doped up to the eyeballs with vitamins a-z! but obviously not. I just hate this so much.

Have any of you every though of emmigrating?

Yes I would love to :-)