Feelin Aweful!

Hi everyone- I'm sure I'm not alone here - I have just been feeling horrible the last week. I woke up the other day having a complete anxiety attack. (I'm off all my meds and was just trying for child #2 before this anxiety started). Now I don't know what to do. My ob/gyn said to take Alprazolam up to 3 x's a week, but it's a Class D drug and scares me too much. My good friend is a RN and has a child with severe disabilities and she said not to take any drugs or I'll always blame myself if my child ends up having problems.

I just don't know what else to do. I am exercising for 30 min. when I wake up with my light box hanging over my treadmill and I switched from coffee to 2 teas a day- sometimes none. Still it's unbareable anxiety. But the only good thing is I'm not nearly as depressed as I was last year. It's just the anxiety - and I know its from SAD since nothing in my life is that stressfull right now (I have a supportive family and only work 22 hours a month). So I'm confused at what to do to feel better outside of moving down south.

I just feel terrible and can't wait till Spring. If anyone has any ideas for me (Linda - Julie??) please let me know. Love to you all-

By the way Nebula, I moved down south (FLA) from NY in hopes that my symptoms would lessen. Unforetuneatly I have not found the relief I hoped for.

Sorry I didnt mean to get your hopes down. I am in the very northern part of Florida and it maybe gets a little darker here. Florida is a long state, about 8 hours from top to bottom. So things might be better in South Florida.

As far as spending time outdoors- no not really, maybe to play golf on the weekends but other than that I am usually indoors, but then again I dont spend too much more time outside in the summer either so I dont know why this whole change of season thing affects me like it does.

By the way, I just read my posts and saw what a grump I was being, I couldnt believe it was me who had written those things. Sorry, please forgive my negativity. Hope things are improving for you.